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| I literally look like this during each semester. Albeit, a little less cheerful. |
Hmn, what to say? During this summer, when I was not suffering from a poor man's Sartre-style existential crisis or making fun of hipsters who wear skinny pants, I was going through a "what the heck am I doing in life" phase.
When it comes to college, my views are totally bipolar. Sometimes, I get really worried and feel depressed that I made the wrong decision in studying Computer Science or coming to this university. Other times, I feel really happy with my choice and excited to study new things.
Right now, I am honestly not looking forward to going back to college - the professors are all depressing (typical Computer Science professors, trust me, they are all like that) and the atmosphere in general is so dull and lifeless.
I feel like I am so unappreciative of my education, when there are kids in the world who barely have access to primary education, let alone university. But I can't force myself to appreciate something I don't find interesting.
Not to mention that I feel drained of energy all the time, and have pretty much lost the strength to cope with any form of stress.
Then I start to worry about what will happen once I graduate. Will I find a good job? Will I even like that job, or will I end up being a lifeless lump of organic matter? My dream would be to go to graduate school, something in Physics... but I am not sure if that will ever happen, since I am doing an undergrad in Computer Science...
So all in all, just wanted to say that please ignore me if I get a bit emo on this blog for a few weeks. I will try my best to put up interesting things that I find, or make more ridiculous sarcastic posts, but you will have to bear with me for a while.
To end on a slightly more cheery note, here is a picture of a fat little seal pup:
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| Nothing can be better in life than a fat seal pup (via). |
don't worry girl!
ReplyDeletei think all of us get worried about these things too, especially after graduation regarding jobs etc.
let's just handle university first for now, and start worrying in senior year :p
Been there done that
ReplyDeleteI say stick with it..unless you really really want to do physics. It would be better to jump over to physics now i would think... If i win the lotto i would probably go back to school to become a michio-an type of mind beast.
ReplyDeleteGraduating college was intimidating, but once I got my first job, it was all worth it. Now I'm unemployed and refusing to work in IT again because I hated it. So, um, I guess I have no real advice. But I love that baby seal!
ReplyDeletedude I hear you 100% my semester is starting on monday...feel's like shit -.-...nice blog btw...following
ReplyDelete@Roz: yeh I guess you are right. But I can't stop myself from thinking these things :(
ReplyDelete@meandmythinkingcap: hee hee, any advice? :)
@1nesol: I think I will have to stick with it, because so much financial input has gone into it. I REALLY want to do Physics, but I really don't have a choice: quitting Comp. Science now would be a nightmare, both mentally and financially.
@BeerfortheShower(Bryan?): Glad you loved the baby seal! :P
Were you also a techie guy? Talking about Linux all the time? Hee hee, but you guys are doing well and enjoy your work, which is nice to know.
@coneforce: Thnx for the follow :)
I know, I'm so stressed about tomorrow. I bet I will be a nervous wreck. But I guess we just have to pull through, one way or the other.
Same here, I can't stop thinking if my college is the right one for me and that I won't have time later on to do anything about it if it turns out to be!
ReplyDelete@Inverse: Maybe we are all going through similar things. I really do hope though that we get the chance to do things which really inspire us.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry shan, i worry about those stuff too and i think it's best just to focus on what you like doing now. i mean for all i know your blogging seems like something you enjoy and i dontmind the rambling, it's great hehe :D
ReplyDeletewe should open up a 'publishing' studio down in alkhor, tell those kids to come and write and we'll be all bitchez and evil ahhaha kiddinggg