I promised myself that I wouldn't bitch and whine on this blog about why I've been so absent, but since I need to sort of mentally wrap this year up and move on, I thought I would bore you all with what was going on. Don't worry, I will try and make it funny (probably not).
I have been so idle on this blog since November because I was really very ill and was in the hospital. Since spending a week in the hospital I have been taking a big, big break from everything. I haven't really been doing anything except going on long bike rides and listening to Korean pop music (don't ask me about recommendations, it all looks the same to me from my burly depressed eyes. Although if you're desperate you can check out this catchy abomination: Girls Generation - The Boys).
Update on uni life
I have decided to take a semester off uni too, since I really cannot stand it anymore, and I really cannot afford to compromise on my health again. Especially since I spent the last 3 weeks of the Fall semester crying in bed and repeatedly watching 2001: A Space Odyssey all day long.
I hate my goddamn major, all my professors, the whole environment of the place, my stuck-up adviser and all my courses. So yeh, taking a semester break might put me to my senses again.
I'm so glad that my parents (despite being Asian) understand this and are not breathing down my back like dragons. They are disappointed that I am not as emotionally stable as they thought I was (I guess the goth poetry wasn't as big of a giveaway as I hoped), but they are being kinder to me than they have been my whole life. Which I appreciate a lot.
Ups and downs of the past year
Well, I guess the big down was my spectacular mental breakdown. The up was the subsequent entry into the psych unit and the recovery.
I kid, I kid.
Well, the main down was my spiraling disappointment with my university life and my major. But the positive side of this was the slow motion and inspirational self discovery to things I genuinely want to do in life... or something like that...
I also loved the progress I have made with my poetry skills. I have gone from writing to poems about depressed robots to depressed human beings. Yayy!
The other down was my lack of fitness level and my weight gain. Which is why I am resolving myself to losing at least 5 kilos in 2 months, and becoming healthy again.
On the up side, I am really happy the way I have been blogging for the past year. I am especially happy with my art blog, because I have always wanted to put up art which inspires me, and I finally did it this year.
New year resolutions
I have been so idle on this blog since November because I was really very ill and was in the hospital. Since spending a week in the hospital I have been taking a big, big break from everything. I haven't really been doing anything except going on long bike rides and listening to Korean pop music (don't ask me about recommendations, it all looks the same to me from my burly depressed eyes. Although if you're desperate you can check out this catchy abomination: Girls Generation - The Boys).
Update on uni life
I have decided to take a semester off uni too, since I really cannot stand it anymore, and I really cannot afford to compromise on my health again. Especially since I spent the last 3 weeks of the Fall semester crying in bed and repeatedly watching 2001: A Space Odyssey all day long.
I hate my goddamn major, all my professors, the whole environment of the place, my stuck-up adviser and all my courses. So yeh, taking a semester break might put me to my senses again.
I'm so glad that my parents (despite being Asian) understand this and are not breathing down my back like dragons. They are disappointed that I am not as emotionally stable as they thought I was (I guess the goth poetry wasn't as big of a giveaway as I hoped), but they are being kinder to me than they have been my whole life. Which I appreciate a lot.
Ups and downs of the past year
Well, I guess the big down was my spectacular mental breakdown. The up was the subsequent entry into the psych unit and the recovery.
I kid, I kid.
Well, the main down was my spiraling disappointment with my university life and my major. But the positive side of this was the slow motion and inspirational self discovery to things I genuinely want to do in life... or something like that...
I also loved the progress I have made with my poetry skills. I have gone from writing to poems about depressed robots to depressed human beings. Yayy!
The other down was my lack of fitness level and my weight gain. Which is why I am resolving myself to losing at least 5 kilos in 2 months, and becoming healthy again.
On the up side, I am really happy the way I have been blogging for the past year. I am especially happy with my art blog, because I have always wanted to put up art which inspires me, and I finally did it this year.
New year resolutions
- Lose at least 5 kilos of weight
- Stop eating junk food completely and go back to my rabbit food diet =___=
- Write poetry about more topics, rather than just robots
- Change the blog layout
- Focus more on my drawings and art
Sorry to hear about the bout with ill health and the uni troubles. But I'm glad to hear that you're on the mend and hopefully feeling better about the future. Hmm...The Unitroubles. Sorry, random thought, but that might make a decent band name, no?
ReplyDeleteThanks for the sympathy :)
DeleteThe Unitorubles can totally be a nerdy electro rock band, ahaha
Oof, sounds like you needed a break. Hope you get your mind sorted out soon.
ReplyDeleteThanks :)
DeleteNice resolutions!
ReplyDeleteLets just hope that I follow them!
DeleteLet's talk soon! :)
ReplyDeleteAnd catch up properly again.
Why didn't you mention any of this when we met? >:/
Good luck on those resolutions shahn! :D
Well we met so suddenly and we were all in such a good mood and meeting after such a long time, I didn't want to keep maoning about stuff. So I decided to keep it for later.
DeleteLets meet soon :D
Here's my inner dialogue as I read those first two paragraphs:
ReplyDelete"Yeah, Flippy D, where the fuck have you been? ... Ohhh... (awkward!)"
So sorry to hear how down you've been, and so happy to see you resurface. Any time you want to chat/vent/freak out, you know how to get my email (hint: My web site)
And no matter how down you are, always remember that there are people out there who are pulling for you.
Ahaha, sorry for not blogging for so long, you can be mad at me if you want :P
DeleteAnd I really appreciate this lovely comment, thanks a ton :)
I will get your email from your website and send you Viagra span! :P
This made my day!
ReplyDeleteDon't worry, I'll be there tomorrow! :) <3
- Aeman
Can't wait till you come here! Fly faster!
DeleteWelcome back to blogging, and I wish you well in your goals! As a fitness freak, let me just say though, that removing junk food completely makes a person more likely to crash and give in. Instead, try having the junk foods you love sparingly--maybe once a week, as a treat. It won't hurt your diet as much as you think it will, but it'll save your bacon (pun kind of intended) in the long run.
ReplyDelete-the other half of ABFTS
True, I crashed into chocolate a day ago! Wrong grammar, but there you go. I will try fitting in one chocolate a week.
DeleteBut the best secret to fitness is taking a break from uni life. As a former It guy I'm sure you can understand this. Coz Computer Science is all staring at a screen for 23 hours a day.